MickAira Is Loved : n ouh, mickairyal, wen cn i hv u?

2009-07-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

sory fer goin MIA fer a long, long tym..

the com is dwn..

so yar..

yes,

i effin miss blogging..

to the max..

MICKAIRA is still goin strng..

=))

gtg..

will drop in again..

sn, hupfully...

aira

2009-04-29T12:31:00.003+08:00

ooh well..
boredom made me blog..
anyway,
tix is the latest pic of my baby..
cute, ryt?
totally adore her..
&
she's lyk growing ever soo fast..

hubbs off day tmr..
she has to go hum,
to lyk accmpany mama to make bak's pass..
ayang wants me to tag along s well..
c hw its goes den..
&
best part,
my baby aint leaving me to slp alne tnyt!
she'll make her way to her hum tmr am!
yay!

txt her last nyt.
seriously m missing her..
read her reply..
=(
i teared..
you will never be replace.

I LOVE YOU, PA..
i need u like water,
like breath,
like rain..

a pic of me now,
rebonded hair,
all thnx to ayang cos she paid fer it
&
yes i noe,
m gttn chubbier..
bleargh!

aira

2009-04-12T19:23:00.002+08:00

perhaps i was running away frm reality,
i chuz to believe that the impossible is possible,
believing those sweet words from my dear ones..
i wish i never had anyone in my lyf..
cuz each tym dey did a minor mistake,
it hurts deeply..
i wish i didnt held onto their werds,
cuz wen dey broke it,
or did nt fulfill it,
it cuts me..

memories,
i hold them dearly to my hart,
cuz wadever i share with u guys,
it can never hppn again,
not anymore..

nothing last forever..
be it bloodties,
frenship,
relationships..
its all a temporary kinda thng..
cuz at the end of the road,
u only have yerslf..

gal,
wadever ive shared with u was the most beautiful one ive ever had..
i just realize tat thngs cud never b the same btwn us..
ders lyk tix huge wall btwn us..
tix mrng,
i drmt tt i left u,
i left wadever we shared..
perhaps,
its happening?

'03,
i knew u existed..
how muc wee loathe each othr n stuf..
'05
when thngs started btwn us..
how we got to noe each othr..
we undrstood each othr lyk to the max..
went thru thick n thin..
we were like twins..
how i used to b so protective of u wenever someone bullies u..
how muc we love espl..
thox funny mmts at espl..
thox tyms wen u had red light,
tt woman was disgusted,
but i helped u..
thox frequent visits to my house..
those secrets..
those cries..
thox fights..
evrythn, in short..
sweet-bitter memories..

i noe i can never get all that anymore..
its just memories now..
trust me,
i treasure it to the max..

tix stupid tears just wun stop rolling dwn..
lets just stop.

i lost myslf the day we fall apart.

aira

2009-04-03T12:24:00.004+08:00

Abstract thoughts.
Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever.
Changing personality.
Attractive.
Sexy.
Temperamental.
Quiet, shy and humble.
Honest and loyal.
Determined to reach goals.
Loves freedom.
Rebellious when restricted.
Loves aggressiveness.
Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislike unnecessary things.
Loves making friends but rarely shows it.
Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious.
Realizing dreams and hopes.
Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure.
Romantic on the inside not outside.
Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift.
Tries to learn to show emotions.

if sumbody were to ask me wad kinda prsn m i..
i wud mention all of the above..
=))
very true indeed.

im trying not to care at all abt u..
like wer r u,
have u eaten & stuff like that..
but still,
it affects me..
u r acting like we are merely strngrs..
it hurts me in a way..
u rthr give the cold treatment..
i wish i cud b as hartless s u..
i hate u but i love u.

may the cold war end sn.

i miss my besty, as alwayss.

papa,
i love u more den i did ystrdy.

aira

flurry & ashee

2009-03-23T17:42:00.002+08:00

mickaira's & fuzzura's

i love snapping their pix wen dey r lyk slpin..
cuz ttx wen der will stay stil..

our baby FLURRY...
we adopted it on the 20th of marc..
gender : male
age : 2mths plus
on the day tt we took it,
i bathe it...
&
flurry loves water!
=))
hee...

der were a few names tt we gave it,
before naming it flurry..
eg : venz, pepper, milkshake..
haas..

in the evening,
we head to amk hub..
ders a pet shop ard there,
thnk god..
we bot the milk bottle, shampoo..
food..
it was a great fun..
ayang even bot toys fer it..
trust me..
we shopped fer flurry's stuff lyk s tho its our baby son..
haas...

ayang..
flurry is gettin darn playful..
cmpared to the 1st day wen he was here..
too bad yer at werk..
u cnt witness him bein mischevious..
cum hum sn yang..
2hrs more to go..

aira & flurry mish you to the max,
to the core!!

aira

2009-03-15T09:01:00.003+08:00

hapy bday sayangku..
hv a blast tday aye!!
&
yes,
myt up sn kays!!

m hvin my period.
bummer!
sheesh.
gotta hit the shower..
maid's off day..
&
i nyd to head to RC to tc of my baby!
hv a gud day humans.

p.s i cnt seem to get enuf of you, micky.

2009-03-13T11:20:00.004+08:00

went out wit hubbs on the 11th aftr she fnished werk..

pure fun..

having jz each other fer cmpany..

*awesome*

tix was a few days bck..

ayang cum muc ltr a she had werk..

LJS fer lunch,

CarlsJr fer diner..

gerek or wad?

a pity tt i had an upset tummy fer tt day..

cuden fnis my food..

hmph.

ooh yar,

played arcade & pool too..

fun or wad?

ystrdy the foursum went out to amk hub to catch tix movie..

two thumbs up..

go catch it ppl..

worth the money!

since hubb left fer werk lyk hours ago,

i decided to watch tix indon movie on utube..

effin nice..

made my eyes teary..

sheesh..

wadever i blog abt is lyk soo brief..

cuz im rthr lazy yet,

i feel lyk blogging..

haas..

ayang,

thnx fer ystrdy nyt..

thnx fer tolerating my crap..

jz by bcuz of tt wujud & coming sn,

i cuden slp..

i dyden xpec myslf to cry..

lyk terribly..

sheesh..

utter embarresment!

sory ayang!

gue kangen ama kamu deh!

aira

2009-03-07T15:22:00.003+08:00

hello earthlings.

its lyk raining!
=))
i lyk!
i jz dun lyk the sound of thunder..
terrifies me to the maximum!

so here i am..
at hum,
hvin my ah boling (tt hws its bein spelt, hor?)
yummy..

hubby is at werk..
she woke up l8..
lyk at 8...
the tym wen she starts werk...
sheesh..

all thnx to her anxiety lor...

at 12mdnyt,
she suggested to go mustafa to get her levis watch
&
CK blck perfume..
(my all tym fav)

u shud c hw she kept lukin at her watch n stuff..
oh yar,
she wore the watch ryt aftr payment was made..
hows tat?
well ttx the 1st tym she bot herslf a watch..
&
of cos im effin proud of tt..
cuz usualy mama wil get it fer her..
s usual ayang wantd to get me watch too..
but i turned her dwn,
cuz i dun wear watches..
soo nt aira..
pa bot me body spray..
the victoria's secret..
2 of tt..
yupyup..

tts abt it actualy..
oh yar..
hvin plan in the nyt..
fishing wit ayang's pham at labrador..
lala & gf r goin too..
hupfully i'll hv the mood to take pix..
=))

i wish u were here, pa.
love loving you.

aira

2009-03-04T09:50:00.003+08:00

s mentioned in the previous post,
hubbs wil b hvin her off day on the 3rd,
so ysrtdy itslf,
we went out..
initially we wanted to head to MS..
den in the train,
i suggested to head to bugis instd..
cos im sick & tired of MS liao..

heres a pic we took undr the blk,
only 1 pathetic couple shot..
hubbs was bein a bummer,
despyt my persuations..
sheesh.

so,
i took a few shots of myslf lor..

we windowshopped..
ate at LJS..
had doughnuts..
cuz ive bn craving fer dem fer lyk eva soo long..
we were lyk aiming & planning what to buy wen pa's pay is in..
very the kecoh..
i swear..

tokin abt watch, perfume, shoes, clothes, etc...

we've cum to realise,
bein independent,
financially,
is really tough..
esp wen it cums to couple living undr one roof..
u realy cnt spend cash anyhow..
gotta plan & stuf..
but yea,
take one tym at a tym,
ryt sayang?

wadever we plan,
it will hppn..
we'll stay syd by syd,
guide ech othr along,
cum wad may,
we'll mke it thu, ryt?

i love you a whole load my dearest.
to you,
i have gven & will still give my all.

make a guess wad hes duin...

nah,

he aint posing fer a shot..

hes S-L-E-E-P-I-N-G..

haas...

cute or wad?

hee..

sorry bro..

ttx all fer tday.

will blog again,

wenever i feel lyk it.

ps : got yer sms, besty.

cnt rply, prepaid low.

missing you.

love u tonnes.

tc.

aira

2009-03-02T18:24:00.003+08:00

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.
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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
4 in the mrng (gwen stefani)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
wen yer gone (avril lavigne)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
lose control (missy elliott)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
no one (alicia keys)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
all or nothing (westlife)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
mirame (daddy yankee)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
so confused (2play)

WHAT IS 2+2?
so sick (ne-yo)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
i'm leaving (beyonce)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
4 mins (madonna ft J.T)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
baby love (nicole scherzinger)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
sexy love (ne-yo)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
hate that i love you (rihanna ft ne-yo)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
the hardest thing (98 degrees)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
beautiful girls (sean kingston)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
teardrops on my guitar (taylor swift)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
umbrella (rihanna)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
sientelo (speddy ft lumidee)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
shake (ying yang twins ft pitbull)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
drop it on me (ricky martin)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
bonnie & clyde (beyonce)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
be without you (mary j. blige)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
fall fer you (secondhand serenade)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
anytime (ray j)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
unbeliveable (craig david)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
burn (usher)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
clumsy (fergie)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
calabria (rune RK)

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
top a tappa (t.o.k)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
wad gos ard cums ard (J.T)

go & try k ppl?
u'll b lafin yer arse off.
haas.

aira

mouldy post

2009-03-02T17:48:00.003+08:00

gift frm lala & MJ

me & my LOVE

gift frm ayang..

=))

she made two of my wishes came true!

sweet or wad?

thnx alot love...

i soo appreciate it..

i noe i dun show but,

yea..

thnx love..

cnt thnk you enuf noe..

i noe tt the tweety was a cnfrm pressy frm her..

but the mp3 wasnt..

it was funny how i cuden c the gift..

it went lyk tix..

clock struck 12mdnyt..

ayang: dear.. i sejok, amek jacket..

(so i went & took it, came bck to gv the jacket)

ayang: dumb ah u...

me: wad?!

sis: yer pic wit micky at the inner cupboard door...

(i went to c..)

yes..

the mp3 tt ive bn wantn..

haas..

=))

yes im declaring hw hapy i m gttn all the gifts..

but trust me,

i dun show it facially..

how do i say it..

erm..

i dun go sayin 'yay!'

jump ard...

yea..

i jz smile n say thnx..

isit weird?

haas..

den we celabrated my bday by hvin a mini bbq..

thnx to ayang, sis, bro, lala, nur fer makin it hppn...

nazz came ltr in the evening..

thnx fer the cake....

okay tts all ive got to say..

hmm..

recently,

tt wud b on the 28th feb at 0225h..

we went to catch my bloody valentine 3D..

it was aye-okay..

at the end of it,

me & hubb were sufferin frm headache..

irritatingly irritating.

hmm..

naza..

i hup u r duin well..

do noe tt yer oways on my mind..

i kp hvin tix qn on my mynd fer u..

'till wen r u gona mke me miss u?'

date me sn lar, busy woman!

ayang hvin off day tmr..

yay!!

yer all MINE!!

up to date,

we've bn tgthr fer 1yr 2 wks 2 days..

uve chnged my whole werld baby..

thnx fer supportin me, bof emotionaly & financially..

i realy duno hw to repay u..

i duwana add on..

cnt praise u too muc..

wait u fly sky high..

hee...

but trust me,

i wun b soo dumb to leave u ever..

get it?

i blast my mp3,

stuck the earpiece into my ears,

jz soo i wun hear the thunder..

it helps,

esp wen im all alone...

baby,

i wish u were here..

aira

2009-01-29T11:39:00.003+08:00

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And gather myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life,
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything OK

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

Cause without you I cant breathe
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do I can never,
ever live a day without you
Here with me,
do you see,
You're all I need

i will be by leona lewis

2009-01-28T15:26:00.003+08:00

s u cn c...

i had a pretty hectic day ystrdy..

MJ invited sum of the relatives ova to my crib..

mini kenduri kinda thng..

a very informal one indeed!

stil..

i had lotsa fun..

playin wit the kids, esp..

=))

overall its was okay..

thnx to sis & bro fer gttn the stuf,

eg. fruits & stuf..

sis frying the chic wings..

oooh ya..

& the power pac fan..

hee...

may it stand fer a sum tym..

ps : sis, lyk seriously, wile waitin fer the satay,

u dyden hv to talk to the kids lyk s tho yer tokin to yer kids in sch..

i was lyk lafin to myslf..

esp wen u talk to ahnaf upon him misbhavin..

A PLEASANT SURPRISE INDEED!

she dropby at the eleventh hr!

sheesh..

hee..

i did invite her..

but she went on silent mode..

so i assumed tt she wasnt cumin..

but surprisingly,

she did..

thnx sayang..

u made my night!

i love you to bits...

i swear..

yes,

tt smile on u again...

+))

my special thnx goes out to u ayang!

i dare say tt u did most of the chores fer the kenduri..

clean the toilet, (hee..)

vacuumed the whole hse,

arranged the furnitures n stuf..

ooh ya,

wen evrythn was over,

u cleaned the kitchen fer me,

did the laundry..

(& bro fer washing the dishes)

thnx alot...

i was too tired

was bz ntertaining besty too..

=))

yer soo totful ayang!

=))

well i dyd gv u sumthn in rturn..

on tt nyt itslf..

so,

we r quits, hor..

hee...

i may nt say it show it or even say it evryday,

but do noe,

i appreciate having u by me evry single day..

u fill my lyf in tyms of loneliness,

saddness..

all the 'ness' u cn eva tink of..

dun wana say muc,

i duwana b u, noe..

ST..

hee..

i walk my talk..

nt talk my walk..

stil,

I LOVE U..

MORE DEN YSTRDY, of cos...

again,

thnx a million, hubbs..

ooh yar,

hubb is bck to the old job..

boy, was she please abt it..

=))

greatness!!

tts abt it..

ouh..ouh wait..

did i mention tt my bday is cumin sn?

=))

aira

2009-01-21T04:10:00.003+08:00

dok.
how r u duin?
hv u bn eatin?
r those eyes stil teary?
hv u bn slpin?
i cnt slp..
my tots r full of u..

i noe yer goin thru a hard tym now...
i soo wana b der fer u..
b strng gal..
well i noe u r..
im nt gud wit werds..
i jz cnt wait to c u & hug u tyt..
im weried abt u..
i feel u, noe..
we r twins, rmbr?
dun push me away k..
i wana b yer pilliar,
i wana b yer tissue..
meet me sn, sayang..

'I know for certain that we never lose the people we love, even to death.
They continue to participate in every act, thought and decision we make.
Their love leaves an indelible imprint in our memories.
We find comfort in knowing that our lives have been enriched by having shared their love'

i will doakan aruah mak in my prayers.

iloveyounaza.

aira

ps : c thox pix? i wana c tt smile again.

2009-01-19T03:00:00.002+08:00

lyk finaly ive edited pix
&
post it in my blog..

=))

nuthn muc to say..

im alr slpy,
gona hit my pillow real sn..
gotta wake hubby up at 5.45am..
hubbs takin up my space on bed.
sheesh..

gudnyt werld..
erm,
i min gud mrng!

ayang,
YOU MIN THE WERLD TO ME.

aira

pictures!

2009-01-19T02:32:00.008+08:00

2009-01-16T11:54:00.004+08:00

i miss naza.
i miss mel.
i miss kaurey.
i miss michelle.
i miss mr.poa (i fergot his name, shucks)
I MISS BHSS.
i miss zakiah.
i miss sofie.
i miss ain.
i miss mrs.samuel.
I MISS BMC.
i miss ayu.
i miss fanaa.
i miss hello kitty.
i miss zee.
i miss tending to pts.
I MISS NURSING.
i miss nana.
i miss yuzie.

i miss my past.
i dun c any future ahead of me.
yes.
i gotta find a job fast!
- ezlink
- cash in hand (JIC kinda thng)
nt hvin tt, how to?
ppl ard me myt think im lazy n stuf,
jz stay hum n stuf..
sheesh.
is tt wad i wan?

at tyms,
i fyl lyk stayn at my grany's til i get tt a job..
shucks,
i duno..
i cnt jz xpec hubbs to do evrythn in terms of finance wise..
im nt selfish..
i dun wana b jz anybody.
i wana b me,
the me hu used to hv high xpectatns of herslf..
wer has she gone too....
=(

i wana b one of these,
- teacher
- counsellor
- nurse

yes,
nurse,
haas..
i screwed it,
yet im missin it now..
how ironic!

naza,
i read yer blog & tt gv me d inspiratn to blog..
soo all tix came out..
gal,
i miss u soo bad..
wen cn i b close to u again?
lyk u noe,
b totaly aware of wats hppnin in yer daily lyf?
b all soo protectiv twerds u again lyk bfer?
sheesh.

&
its fara 19th bday tday.
hapy bday gf!
=))

i sure m missing my past soo bad.

jz a werd tt dscribes me bfer i stop.

L-O-S-T

aira

2008-12-15T13:58:00.005+08:00

nice ryt?

i asked ayang to do the pose...

i fynd tt the pic, part 2 luks funny...

study the body language..

hee...

pic of the day..

ystrdy was our 13th mth anni...

reflectn..

individual post.. =))

i gt to mke a wish!!

hee...

i swear its soo hard to get a clear pic of it..

we catched twilight ystrdy..

i swear i love Robert Pattinson...

i was mesmerized..

hawt or wad?

hee...

on the scale of 5,

i wud gv 3.5..

i dun quite lyk the endin..

so yar...

ayang was lyk fefylin thruout...

ooh yar,

we got the 'BEST' seats..

first row frm the front!

sheesh.

ovadue pix....

ayang had a haircut..

bfer.during.aftr.

u r my hapynesh!

~~mick~~aira

2008-12-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

very well said.
i do agree up to a certain xtend.

s a matta of fact,
im used to the way thngs r ryt nw,
cum to tink of it,
im happier tix way..

its alr part of me n my blood,
to prioritise an outsider den ech othr..
dun say its nt cause,
actions speaks louder den werds.
=))

tokin abt tr8tn me well n stuf.
i bliv in fairness.
hw abt u n my othr half?
is tt bein fair?
im upset abt it,
lyk totally..
my othr half oways remynded me,
to respect elders,
yes, i heed to that..

u myt say,
wadever fer n stuf,
fine,
if tts wad u say,
i cn be the same way too..

actualy,
im nt realy bthrd abt u n my bld bein soo close tgthr,
its more to y u n my bld cn tok to me,
but nt my othr half?
is tt bein fair,
u tell me?
tts MY OTHR HALF,
any respec gven??
hell no!!
u bof acted lyk s tho she doesnt exist..
altho der were hiccups,
she gv in..
( slm tgn ech tym she return hum, jempot mkn n stuf )
u min tt mean nuthn to u..?
i dun do all tt at all,
den y tt treatment to my othr half?
i c b jz lyk my bld,
nt to tok to u at all n stuf,
but did i?
even if i dyd,
i hv my reasons..

and seriusly,
if u tink moving out myt help,
it wun at all...
cuz im least affected by it alr..

hv said my piece.

-aira

i have tix own tinkin of mine,
i dun bliv in talkin thngs out nicely n stuf,
but s tym passes by,
i bliv tt wit patience n love,
thngx will go out fine..
n ya,
tym is all we nyd,
all of us nyd tym..
it doesnt take overnyt to chnge,
im totaly aware of it...
but ignorance, cold treatment, hatred wun chnnge it too..
cuz i bliv in the saying,
'biar org uat kite, kite jgn uat org'
so imma b patient n hup thngs wil turn out well..
n if ive bn rude to bof of u, im sory..
n to dad,
i jz wished u did nt mention abt my sis..
i can stand u tokin abt me,
but nt my pham..
bcos of aira, im bein patient..
tts abt it...

-micky

mickaira

2008-11-24T12:33:00.002+08:00

ystrdy was fun..

kak hawa came over to help sis n bro wit the prawn noodle..

super delicious..

=))

ltr part out the day,

kak hawa wore make up fer us..

s in bof me n sis..

prettypretty!

hee...

thnx alot kak hawa..

n yer make up tips...

it definately help me alot!

thnx fer cookin micky's dish...

it was sooo shedap!!

=))

hubbs slpin...

pfft..

off day tday..

yes..

gona spend quality tym tgthr...

cnt blog muc..

gotta cook...

have a gr8 day ppl...

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-23T08:08:00.003+08:00

fetched hubbs frm werk..

den we met lala fer a mere wile at eunos...

den we made our way to EC..

didie had a celebration der...

fer her cousin...

i saw my junior pri schmate,

der,

the one in jacket..

kenet is his name..

big boy alr...

overall,

i had fun...

lyk seriusly..

its bn awile since i do tt...

yang,

im sory tt i kept delayin the tym to go hum...

im sory u had insufficient slp..

tt u had to go werk..

im sorry..

baby,

do noe tt my love fer u is true,

i cnt do w/o u...

u r a part of my lyf..

wadever i do,

werever i am,

yer neva off my mind,

i love u more den i love myslf...

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-21T12:46:00.003+08:00

imma hit the showers real sn...

to visit my granny
&
my darlin baby...
over at RC..

den off to amk intrchnge,
myt hubbs...

njoy the wkends ppl..
=))

missin you, greenycurls.

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-20T13:41:00.004+08:00

A student asks a teacher: What is love?
The teacher said: in order to answer your question, go to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.

The student went to the field, go thru first row,
he saw one big paddy, but he wonders....
may be there is a bigger one later..
Then he saw another bigger one,
but maybe there is an even bigger one waiting for him..
Later, when he finished more than half of the paddy field,
he start to realize that the paddy is not as big as the previous one he saw,
he know he has missed the biggest one,
and he regretted.
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him; this is love... you keep looking for a better one ,but when later you realize, you have already miss the person.

do you feel me?

2008-11-20T13:07:00.008+08:00

LOVE neva dserved to be blamed in the first plc
wen we are hart-broken or dumped..
Ders no suc thng as love isnt fair, love sucks or wadsoever..
But one truth about it, LOVE HURTS..

The saying, 'no pain no gain'...
Appreciate evrythng we hv in tix lyf be it, e ups n downs, tears n lafters,
In other words, we should be prepared or b aware of the consequences tt might await ahead..
So as we prepare ourselves to play the game of love,
why make fuss when it fail or e fact tt its nt going the way we predicted or wanted?
We cant be winners or losers all our lives, can we?...
Be glad as we've loved and been loved, at least..

picked tix frm sumwer...
it sorta enlighten me n gvs me strength, in a way..
i noe.. ( absurdly weird of me to feel tt way )
haas..

&
y r my own tots running wild?
( i gas its the syndrome of stay hum too long )
i feel neglected-

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-19T12:03:00.002+08:00

yes,
i will not deny tt im not over that incident..
in a blink of an eye,
it has alr been 4yrs,
yes 4 draggy long years yet i fail to get over it..

i miss u callin out my name,
i miss yer touch upon my face,
i miss yer morning calls bfer i made my way to sch,
i miss yer calls wen yer at werk,
i miss those tyms i spend on u to make u slp,
i miss yer smile,
i miss yer cookin,
i miss u feeding me,
i miss u nagging at me,
i miss u pamperin me,
i miss seein u cook, ( eventho yer dead beat )
i miss yer care n concern twerds me,
i miss u gttn all weried abt me ova the slightest thng,
i miss u combing & tying my hair,

i miss evrythn abt you...
i swear i do...
i can never get all that anymore..
jz 14yrs of yer love, care & concern...
i swear it wasnt enuf,
i nyd it more den ever now..

but,
im pullin thru fer u,
u insisted on stayin dspyt tt incident,
perhaps,
to c us b a sumbody, sumday?
yes,
tt will hppn...

&
now,
yer my dearest baby..
im taking care of u jz lyk how u used to tc of me...
gvin milk, chngin diapers.....
now tt im no lngr stayin undr 1 roof wit u,
i bet yer missing me,
bt i miss u soo, soo muc more...

i need tissue...

I LOVE YOU MUM.

aira

2008-11-19T11:21:00.004+08:00

i noe, i noe..
im puttin on wt..
sheesh...
tix hppns wen u spend the whole tym at hum..

enuf abt tt..

ooh well wer shud i start?..
hmm...
fer the past 2 days ive bn wakin up late,
wic result in?
-hubbs late fer werk
sheesh..
my most sincere apology gos out to u baby..!

all thnx to the medicine lar..
i went to NSC on mon with my aunt..
regardn my irritatingly itchy skin..
so doc gv me 2 types of quem,
two types of medication, ( day & nyt )
moisturiser,
& showerfoam...

i loathe the pill ( nyt )
cuz it will put me too deep, deep slp..
n as fer the shower foam,
it darn ex fer me lar,
$16.35 fer 400ml..
sheesh...
wen u use it,
it feels like s tho yer applying sun tan lotion instead..
sheesh...
and yes,
my skin is gttn betta!
=))

yang...
thnx fer applyin the quem fer me evrynyt..
very sweet of u....
sweet like candyflosh!
=))
lamenology.. ( i noe )

so yar,
hubb was late fer werk..
the 1st thng i did wen i woke up was,
cooked rice,
heated up the food wic i cooked last nyt,
made her tea..
n yea,
aftr hubbs off to werk,
i did laundry..
n here i m online...

i feel like a hsewife,
i swear!!
jz add a baby in my lyf,
A COMPLETE HSEWIFE..

i sorta hate my lyf ryt now..

im at a long dark road,
i need a light,,
a light tt wud lead me to sumwer,
sumwer i noe i blong...

hubbs hvin off day tmr,
i asked her to slpover at mama's hse,
i bet her parens miss her tons!
n perhaps we bof need to miss ech othr, more...
=))

i envy my own gf..
she has parens whom she can run to any mmt, anytym..
- gets love, care & attn
- able to get her wans
- eat delicious food cook by her very own mum
- calls of concern frm granny, mama

in short she gets the best frm her own pham..

shucks,
im brkin dwn now,
sheesh...
shall end here..
my last piece,

aira envies those hu has a complete pham..............

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-18T11:56:00.004+08:00

s sad s u r,
s dwn s u r,
i feel the same way too!
s a matta of fact,
its double, its triple!

i started to get VERY intrested in it
i started to mix ard more
lafters n smyles occured more often den ever
concentration : 100%
determination was there

BOOOM......

all tt issues hppned...
i dyn nt manage to let tix out til tday..

TO YOU,
whom i shared every single thng wit..
how do u thng i felt?
&
wen i woke up tday,
u told me all tt,
lyk cmon,
yes u r sad,
but hey,
im the one hu went thru all that shyts!
tears..
thox ~~1852265658~~ ~~tears ive shed wasnt of any help..~~
its was too late,
far too late...

u were the one hu told me tt,
ders a reason bhynd it..
HIKMAH thngy..
but now,
look,
hus bringing whom dwn?

tt very qn of yers,
'wad shud i say if i cum across tt qn again?'
it myt nt matta to u,
but trust me,
wen u sent tt,
it was s tho u slit open my throat..

it may seem tt im nt at all affected!
s a matta of fact,
i m ok..
i farkin m..

I MISS DEM..
I MISS THOX VOICES,
THOX LAFTERS,
THOX NAGGINGS....

if only u knew,
if only u were in my shoes..
thox werds,
wud neva cum out...

&
if i were u..
i wun say tt...

but all has been said n done...
all i cn do now is thnk you fer,
'UNDERSTANDING' me..
=))

&
yes,
selfish is the ryt werd!

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-15T09:58:00.003+08:00

we took tix pix ystrdy bfer goin dwn to 7-11 to get our fag,
my cheesy biscuit
&
chocolate..
=))

wanted to blog ystrdy but i was bz spending tym wit hubb..
hubb spend the entire day wit me..
well,
of cos she has to..
its our anni...
1st year, lar sey...
=D

so yar,
we had our brunch at mac..
den we went off to SS to get groceries..
it was fun & funny..
its our 1st tym duin so,
s in, no one else,
no sis & bro
n it was totally a great xperience...

if posyble,
hubb wants to buy evrythn,
lyk seriusly...
i was the one hu had to tell her,
'no nyd la, pa..' 'yang.. tu, tkyar la..'
yea,
tt kinda stuf..

so yar..
we head hum..
&
we cook!!

ayam lemak cili padi...
wait..
or isit lemak ayam cili padi?
ok, wadever,
i gas u guys noe tt dish..

s usual hubb rang mama up..
ask fer the ingredients...

&
gas wad?

ITS LYK SOOO SHEDAP LAR SEY...
erm..
perhaps a lil too spicy?
hubb add 15 cili padi...
sheesh...

ysrtdy itslf,
we bof eat twice ok!!

aftr all tt,
hsehold chores...
we bof surfed the net tgthr...
had sum great, xhilarating mmt tgthr..
den we watch our 7pm chi drame series...

so tts how we spend our anni tgthr...
i fynd tt its lyk soo super special..
=))

i wana post my M-I-C-K-Y..
but its erm so called R(A)
nvm..
hee...

sayang,
i never tot we cud reach tix far tgthr..
nevertheless im soo fully blessed..
no doubt it was painful, torturing n stuf at start,
but wit ech passing day,
the love tt u showered me became strngr..
&
up to date i feel so loved by u...
thnx fer bein a responsible hubb,
a caring one too...
thnx fer bein the light that shine thru my ~~dark~~ lyf..
u, bein the very u to have diff ways
&
means to bring tt sincere smile on my face..
uve chnged my whole lyf,
tix i swear...

lets not get all mushy lar..
but do tt tt yer xistence in my lyf has brot a whole new meaning to me..
&
trust me,
U DSERVE TO BE MINE ONLY..

ku tdak akan melepaskan u dari genggamanku...
&
kau milik ku sorg!!
(erm.. dos tt sound ryt? i noe..i noe.. i suck wen it cums to mly..)

~~mick~~aira

our 1st year anniversary!!

2008-11-14T00:24:00.004+08:00

All my lyf,

I prefer sum1 lyk her,

Ruling ova me,

And therefore imma b her slave 4eva..................

HAPPY 1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABYLOVE!!!

Tho we didnt get to celebr8 dis day 2getha

Due to sum circumstances

Having u by my syd each n evry nyt

Means more den having a celebration..

The only difference wud b the date, that is...

And having u in my lyf is lyk the greatest gift on earth.....

Dont know wat u did to me with yer love

Coz tym passes by so fast,

W/o me realising, its been a year..

I dont giv a damn bout how long we've been

All i care about is to hv u by me n fyl yer love....

Lyk ryt now yer lukin at me blogging.....

I fyl sho loved...

I know yer shlpy,

Mate dah red

Romos2 muke kat bantal.....

I gas i'll juz end here..

Dont know when i'll blog again

Coz after 12 hrs of work

Nd to spend tym with babylove

Sho i'll blog again during my off day.....

Papa loves u sho2 much..

mick~~aira~~

2008-11-13T11:48:00.003+08:00

pix frm the past..
wndrful memories...
=))

______________________________________

thngs did hppn s planned...

the six of us went drinking..

pure fun...

s oways...

i did ~~lose cntrl~~ a lil byt...

but,

i had fun...

cnt blog muc...

nyd to do laundry,

fold clothes,

sweep & m0p the floor...

pffft...

aira salutes all the hsewives...

ayang,

i wan u to noe tt yer my one & only...

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-08T14:52:00.003+08:00

im hvin headache..
lyk damn!

ystrdy was pretty okay fer me..
i waited fer hubb at mac..
had our diner..
den head to 7 eleven n bot 2 amsterdam
&
my red bull.. ~~a must~~

i swear i miss the drinking sessions tt we bof used to hv..
n wen i was stayin at my granny's,
the drinkin session was rthr often..
and we bof will hv a bottle of baron each..
n yar,
drink it frm der wit straws...
it was fun...
altho its the two of us..
we'll talk abt practically evrythn..
&
we did the same thng ystrdy...
=))

and dad had to jz spoil the mmt...
sheesh...
he came hum drunk..
n his lips were swollen...
he told me ystrdy nyt,
he fot wit i duno hu..
but tday,
he claimed tt he had a fall...
sheesh...
tat old man ah...
aira has no cmnts...

'u realy hv yer ways to make me fall fer you,
ova n ova again' -papa

haas...
hawt or wad?

papa,
i wanted to type out the whole txt wic u sent earlier..
but duwan lar.. -shyness
tt part is more den enuf..
=))

&
yes,
later on,
drinking session wit hubb,along, ina, dot n gf..

hw was yer nyt ysrtdy?
mine was EFFYN HAWT..
=))

~~mick~~aira

2008-11-07T12:42:00.002+08:00

~~sum stuf crop up at hum~~
pfffffft.

jz had my brunch..
dad cooked fish head curry..
&
he fried my fav veg...
taugeh...
yummylicious
=))

hum alone..
evryone is at werk...
sheesh...
how mre boring can my lyf b?
pfffft..

tmr,
me n hubb plan to myt along, ina, dot n her gf..
go drinkin or sumthn...
plus,
we miss dem to the effyn max..
its bn ages since we last met dem..
sheesh...

sumthn crop up at hubbs werkplc..
i swear im lost despyt hubb xplainin to me..

ayang,
i hup evrythn turns out well..
m waitin fer yer return..
ILY...

~~mick~~aira

special thnx to zura_miel =))

2008-11-06T19:07:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY NEW BLOG

sooo..
wow...!

special thnx to my sis of cos..
=))

nways ppl,
its gona b shared by micky too..
yupyup..

so yar,
if u chnce upon tix blog,
liky-link kays?

~~mick~~aira
=)

2008-11-06T09:08:00.006+08:00

its bn awile since i last blog..
lets jz say ive nuthn to blog abt..
sheesh...

lyf has been pretty mundane on my syd..
haish..

ooh ya!!

cn u bliv it?

ystrdy,
i swept the hse,
m0pped the floor..
did the laundry..
n cook asam pedas ikan pari..
it was my 1st attempt..
n boy,
i did okay...
=))

i was sooo proud of myslf..
thnx to my mum in law fer her recipe.. =))

&
yar..
hubby had tembel on her left eyes..
so she was at hum wit me the whole day..
n yes,
we did spend quality tym wit ech othr...
=))

so yar,
here i am..
blogging...

gotta cook yong tau foo ltr..

i swear ive got no idea wad else to blog abt..
sheesh..

i miss my nurses ~~wanabe~~...
i miss my besty...

&

ive bn kpin mum rgardin tix particular matta.
if u stay away,
yer safe.
if u step on my tail,
i swear imma pounce on u..
=))

yang,
'im lucky im in love wit my ~~scandal~~ bestfren'
&
i made it real fer u baby...

qn fer tday:
girls can b a pure slut, cnt dey?

2008-10-31T13:19:00.004+08:00

gudbye my frens..
the 6mths of the rollercoaster ryd wit u guys was a blast..
&
i swear imma miss all of u..

AYU, FANA, YANTY, HAZIE, DANIEL
&
nt fergettn the rest too..

=))

2008-10-28T21:52:00.004+08:00

tix hansem boii is flying off tmr am to mumbai fer NS...
go safely
&
return hum safely aye?
=))
hv fun der too...
please take gud care of yerslf, hor..
&
lastly,
bon voyage!

_____________________________________

i just fnis my behavioural sci hmwk..
sheesh..
bn on it fer an hr plus...
ooh gawd,,
my hands r soo tired...
pffft.
sch was okay...
i rmbr tix funny thng hppn during CN prac..

tcher: watch! watch!
(she wasa refering to anisah's watch on her wrist..)
faizal: watching, cher..
(he tot the tcher ask us to watch her)

okay it doesnt sound funny wen i xplain it here..
haas..
but yea,
the class burst into lafters,
n boy,
was he embrassed...
=D

_____________________________
ayang aint hum tday...
haish..
cos she's sending al, along with pham..
dey hvta b der by 2am..
i wish i cud tag along..
but yea..
m hvin sch tmr..
so yar..
its okay lar..

hubbs was txtin abt her missing me,
thox star gazing mmts..
abt seein me at hum evry nyt aftr werk,
me preparing her diner..
hee...
=))

i miss u a whole load...
it feels soo diff at hum w/o u here...

bad sign!!

im depending too muc on u...
sheesh..

so bored at hum..
no one to dsturb me,
tag me werever i go...

can tmr cum now..
i miss my baby...

&

papa's fetching me frm sch tmr..
gerek or wad?
haas..
cnt wait to c u!!

I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU,
I LOVE YOU SHO.......................................................

qn fer tday:
ego=confident?
go figure

2008-10-27T08:58:00.006+08:00

i miss dem..
soo, soo muc...
thox taitee over at starbux..
thox skipping classes..
thox chillout sessions at bar..
camwhoring mmts..
cumin in late fer lssns...
hw we said we wanted to study,
but end up duin sumthn else...
haas..
zakiah, ain & sofie..
I miss u bebs the most...

&

hapy 18th bday, gf!!
hup u'll have a blast tday!!
=))

2008-10-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

Lately things have been a little crazy
Flippin out and buggin on my baby
God only knows just what i would be
If i didn't have you here loving me
I wake up all hours of the night when u are away
Crack a smile every time that you're on my brain
Me without you baby just ain't right
So if i lose you how will i survive

I know sometimes you feel you're battling an army just to love me more
Trust me baby imma do u better
Cause i can't lose the one thing that holds me together he's my core
Someone i can call on forever

Cause i know i was so blessed to find you
Imma show and prove do my best to please you
Pull you together when you feel that you're about to fall apart
Make up for the lovin that i never gave before
You're the only thing that makes sense in my life
If we fight i'm gonna make it all right
You should know that i'm in love with you ain't ever gonna leave
Don't want no one else but you cause you're my everything

I know i say it often but baby imma change it
Ive sewn it up yeah i'm done you have been so patient
Imma show u that u are my world
Actions do speak louder than words
So here i go baby, ready to show you baby
You're all i want and need
You're all i know baby
Did you know you hold the key to my future
Can't live without you knowing what it's like to love you

I will do whatever it takes just to keep you in my life
I'll walk about a thousand miles just to be right by your side
So here i go baby,
ready to show you baby
You're all i want and need
You're all i know baby
See imma do things right this time for you i was gonna do right

tix song suits u, love..

-tynisha keli : my evrythn

2008-10-27T01:04:00.004+08:00

the four of us went out tday..
but me, sis n bro went causeway,
to get border fer the hse..
den we took cab,
fetched hubbs over at her werkplc..
&
we r off...
here r sum of the pix we took aftr eating..
=))

sis pix luks pweety, bro luks cute n hubbs luks soo boboi..
=))

s u cn c..

bro n me loves lamb..

sis n hubbs loves chic...

=))

i swear tt the food is awesome!!

effyn delicious..

yummy!!......

to the love of my lyf...

thnx fer yer werds of comfort..

it touched me, deep, deep, deep, deep, deep!!

im soo glad to b yers...

tho yer living under one roof with me,

i still miss u...

i wana date u..

lets go out on a date,

shall we?

hansem, please??

if any point of tym,

im not duin a job s yer partner..

do tell me..

i'll chnge..

i promise...

IM STILL INTO YOU...

qn fer tday:

y is it always too late wen one is willing to chnge?

2008-10-25T18:28:00.002+08:00

i miss tix particular hairstyle of mine..
wen cn i have tt same hairstyle again??
haish...

anthr random pic...

im juz bored

super slpy....

went giant wit bro n sis...

saw lotsa thngs ive neva seen bfer...

haas....

i pass my phase test!!

yaynesh........

=))

_______________________

dear,

do u noe that u have chnge alot..

s a matta of fact uve chnged fer the better..

im certain tt u noe how muc u hv chnged..

IM PROUD TO BE YERS...

qn fer tday:

y let the past haunt you?

2008-10-22T19:47:00.002+08:00

I know that you and I have been through many downs before...
But that don't mean the chance,
Has gone away to love each other more..
We've struggled and we've fought,
To keep us both between the lines...
Through many years we've cried our tears,
And always kept our pride aside,
So you can't say that...
We still,
Always argue all the time,
Never make love when it's right.
We still,
Never say we love each other,
Always up in one another,
We still,
Fight for every little thing,
Never ever stop to think that we still,
Always loved each other..
I know at times, you'd believe we would never change..
You said we'd never change...
That it was much to overcome,
Much of an obstacle to take,
But you were always one,
To always think the worst of things..
So it was always me to take the stand,
And take the initiative so you can't say that...
We still,
Fight for every little thing,
Never ever stop to think that we still,
Always loved each other....

ive always loved tix song...

2008-10-22T19:28:00.002+08:00

y wud one seek revenge against their partner,
if the love was true?

y isit tt couples wic r truly in love have to be threatened by the presense of their xs?

y do we have to feel insecure by the presence of the case of the x?

if yer love fer him/her was true,
y do sumthn,
wic eventually cost u to lose him/her?

now,
y bthr to reminisce the past?

MEMORIES..
dey kill,
dun dey?

THE PAST..
yes,
indeed its the past..
but its stil very muc alive deep dwn,
ryt?

qn fer tday:
IS YER PRESENT BETTER DEN YER PAST?

2008-10-20T18:05:00.007+08:00

living wit u under one roof has brot colours into my lyf..

yer my RAINBOW!!!

gona fetch u frm yer werkplc very sn...
&
not fergettin,
wit yer mcchicken too!!

pix taken ystrdy...
we had fun tho it was a mere wile..
frm amk hub, to CB den to SS...
wana blog more,
but.........

__________________________________________________

in a foul mood..

i swear...

he is bein an arse...
moments ago he came hum..
i ended up opening the door fer him,
cuz he claims he cnt open dem..

1st qn he asked me,

dad : adek kau tk skola ke pe dek??
me : adek skola pe, balek siang..
dad : mane bpak tau, bpak tk nmpk pe.

i went str8 into the room n here i am..

hu r u to qn me whthr i did attend sch or not?
u hv no ryts at all..
hu r u to interfere in my lyf,
wen u hv never done yer part as MY FATHER..
screw u arse..
farking basterd..
I LOATHE YOU...
yer nuthn but a huge burden to me...
so keep yer gap shut now & fereva!

i gas i shud jz hyt the bathroom,
get ready
&
syt at mac or sumthn...
i nyd a nicotine shot, badly.

qn fer tday:
Y DID GOD MKE U A PART OF MY LYF?

2008-10-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

i jz got hum like an hour ago...
sheesh...
im soo effyn slpy....
glad to myt all of my frens..
=))

fer tix term,
wic wil last fer 7 weeks..
we'll be studying abt clinical nursing & behavioural sci..
intreztin, huh?
haas...

neurobiological approach
cognitive approach
behavioural approach
psychoanalytic approach
humanistic approach

[i wan to undrstnd all these at the tip of my fingas]

nxt week,
on sat...
ders gona b phase test,
abt the insertion of NGT, NGT feeding...
duno y,
but im feelin the tension alr...
&
it sux!

goin to sch frm amk is realy a torture fer me..
pffffft.

hmmm...
ooh yar..
my tymtable...
mon- thurs [0800-1700]
fri[0800-1200]
tsk.

i realy hup i can make it...
gotta push myslf lar...

__________________________

hubb is on the way hum...
n she was bein a romeo...
=))

read her blog fer more details...
(tts if she dyd update lar, kpale angen lar tt one)
=))

jz so u noe...
i wun ever let u go...
i noe tt u noe tt im yer evrythn...
i cinta you.
[aira thick skin, but tts true] =P

_____________________________________

hvin a splittin headache..
gona wait fer hubb,
prepare diner,
eat tgthr,
&
im off to ZZzzzZZzz.

yuzie!
glad to c u...
pardon my reaction..
=P

besty!
im missin u mre den ever aftr huggin u...
i duno y...

missing you, mummy.
i'll c u on fri..
=))

im feelin feverish.

qn fer tday:
give me 1 last chnce, can?

2008-10-12T10:58:00.002+08:00

decyded to blog tday cuz i was soo effyn lazy ystrdy...

so yar..
went jln raya-ing wit my sis..
jz the two of us..
haish..
the thot of it jz saddens me deep insyd..
cuz 4yrs bck,
i had mumy along...
haish....

i miss u soo muc dear love...
i'l drop by sumwer near nxt week aye...
i love u a whole load..
=))

______________________

sunday = hsehold chores day!!
pffft...

m spos to cook tday, tgthr wit hubb...
ive no idea wad to cook..
xcep fer the fact tt we bot fish at ntuc ystrdy..
it was effyn funny lar, can?
haas..

wana hv brkfst...
dady cook mee soup..
yummy............
wil update again ltr....

qn fer tday:
y dos all tt afek me stil?
pffft.

2008-10-10T20:01:00.003+08:00

jz a random pic of myslf...

ive finally finished my attchment..

im feelin hapy yet sad..

im gona miss taking care of pts..

haish...

it feels gud having yer pts to b looking ard fer u upon their discharge..

=))

i feel soo hapy

tt made my day...

ouh yar,

upon noeing tt tday was my last day,

1 of the relative of a mly pt gave me green packets..

=))

very, very muc appreciated..

im gona miss my pts..........

bck to sch on mon...

yaynesh,

i cn c YUZIE LARLING....

bck to books, aira....

nt fergettn the lovely tabner..

+))

_______________________________________

weekend is here...

ouh,

i soo long fer it...

im gona wake up late tmr..

chey,

plan in advance alr..

haas...

gotta go jln raye once dady's bck frm werk..

on sun,

gona c mumy...

YAYNESH LAR............

cnt wait, cnt wait......

___________________________________

hubbs on the way hum...

cpt deh...

kangen BANGET!!!

n i soooo wndr hw u cn b late fer werk..

c lar,

jz a day w/o me,

thngs go wrng on yer syd..

so now,

its obvious hw impt i m in yer lyf, hor?

*aira no shame*

haas...

shud have woke u up at 0500,

den u cud hv send me 1st
&

nt b late fer werk...

thnk god yer fren saved yer arse....

_____________________________

dady told me sumthn tt occurred to him ystrdy nyt in the hse...

aira is effyn frightened, can?

______________

joy, gua LURB sama lu...

lincah balek, JOY!!

qn fer tday:

can i turn bck tym plsh??

2008-10-09T01:26:00.003+08:00

hubb is alr aslp...
=((

____________________________

mummy...
im missing u...
cnt wait fer the weekends..
im soo goin over to c u...

____________________________

werk was suprisingly bz...
&
if my legs can talk,
they wud say...
'aira... stop walkin n let me rest...'
my legs hurt to the max,
to the effyn core...

nuthn muc hppn at werk tho..
xcep fer the fact tt one of the pt's son walk out wit me,
aftr i fnis werk..
hubb was outsyd the ward wer im werkin at..
den she showed tix look on the face lyk 'kau ape hal' to the guy...
OMFG..

ayang..
tt was so unxpected..
my apologies k?
it wun hppn..
he wanted to get a drink so yar,
he jz walk wit me..
aamo pker pape k?

___________________

'....g layan diri sendiri..'

thnx a million fer that!!

thnx fer fetching me frm werk, sweety pie!

=))

qn fer tday:
memories kill, dun they?

2008-10-07T23:09:00.004+08:00

c how tired my face is..

i m indeed tired..

effyn tired s a matta of fact..

sheesh..

jz bcuz i was late fer werk fer like 10mins..

i had to cover up fer an hour..

pffft..

was pissed...

tt 'awk' guy was gettin on my nerves..

he sorta like walk dwn to level 1 wit me wen i was on my way hum..

he wanted to get the hypocount machine..

den wen i called hubb n literaly ignored him,

he said tix,

'u busy nah, mcm ade date jek, tkpe lar, lain kali jek..'

he went off..

sumthn wrng wit him i gas?

ooh yar,

c the pic?

hubb hair dark brown alr..

alaa cian dier..

haas..

=))

i nap frm like 5 til 9 wen hubb reach hum..

im still slpy..

pm shyft tmr...

thnk god..

=))

im hungry...

pa..

u promise to fetch me tmr ryt?

=))

cnt wait, cnt wait..

i gas tts all fer tnyt..

wil blog tmr...

gudnyt werld..

to hubb, sis & bro..

sory tadi aira kepale angen..

i realy nyd to chnge tt syd of me..

im realy sorry..

pa da terngahngah..

cian dier pnat...

i cinta you, truckloads.

=))

qn fer tday:

y do ppl love to live in denial?

-again

2008-10-06T20:53:00.002+08:00

im shlpy...

werk was okay..
s usual..
bz...

acep fer the fact tt tix guy..
he luks old enuf to bcum my uncle..
kept callling me 'awak'..
pffft..
irritating or wad??

NAZA & MEL
came over my hse..
shweetness!!
they said tt the hse is nice...
hee..
=))

thnx darls fer cumin dwn..
i truly appreciate it..
i miss thox tymx tho...

&

MEL...
LU VOGUE LA, JOY!!

hubby is on the way hum..
gona fetch her at the bus stop..
buy fag..

she jz missed called me..
gona prepare her clothes fer shower..
plus heat up food fer diner...

u nt bein at hum, was a bore......
&
ouh,
hw i miss u soo, baby.....

qn fer tday:
wic leaves a greater impact?
losing a partner or a fren?

2008-10-06T00:48:00.007+08:00

here are the hari raya pix..

not muc tho...

in the mrng was with pham.

in the nyt,

it was wit hubb, sis n bro..

me & hubb wore same color..

hee...

sweet or wad?

=))

______________________________

to my readers..

sorry fer nt updatin...

have been effin busy...

IVE FINALLY MOVED HOUSE...

tt xplains it all..

to HUBBY & BRO..

thnx fer helpin out..

thnx a million..

=))

went over to c mummy earlier on..

=((

im missing you, mummy...

wadever ive typed out is like effing random,

cuz they (hubb, sis & bro) r like nt slpin..

pffft..

NOISY!!

wads the tym, huh?

tmr all werkin am shyft xcludin sis..

*aira shakes head*

SHOoooOOO!!!

go SLP.......

did i mention tt hubby is stayin my hse?

yaynesh...........

=)))

i wana slp alr...

werkin tmr...

will update properly sn kays?

gudnyt ppl...

I LOVE YOU MEMANY SAYANG..

( she's lukin s im updatin my blog... KPO)

hee...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all....

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN......

qn fer tday:

hw r thngs gona b like living under 1 roof wit you?

2008-09-26T07:54:00.005+08:00

I MISS YOU.....
cnt bliv i wil not be meetin u til mon..
=((
sad or wad?

i made my way dwn to hail a cab to go werk...

but the rain......

pfffft...

i was 3/4 wet!

my gawd la..

waited fer cab till like 7.30..

i gave up

made my way hum...

so here i am..

at hum..

blogging...

i jz fnis bathing my mum..

she smells gud...

mum...

im gona mish u...

cnt bliv tt imma b away frm u..

=((

i will visit u every week k?

tts my promish to u...

hubbs gona go werk sn..

pretty weried tho..

new job..

tc otw to werk n wile at werk humpty dumpty..

missing you truckloads..

tmr gona buke wit sis, naza n rifqi..

ooh my god la..

nervous or wad?

besty,

PLEASE COME!!

qn fer tday:

wil thngs b the same?

2008-09-19T16:28:00.003+08:00

after all that has hppn,
we r stil tgthr..
=))

i love u alot la sayang..
i swear i cnt bear to let u go..

im hapy tt we talked it out n all..
n im certain tt yer love fer me is true..
to hell wit wad othrs say..
imma stay put...
cuz u r my HAPYNESH...

yang,
dun u tink we have bn goin thru alot fer the past 10 mths?
it has never bn an easy road fer us..
but yea,
its all worth it..

i wil do nthn n evrythn,
so long s - M I C K A I R A - stays....

i wana thank naza fer bein der fer me..
i heed yer advice...
&
all thnx to u..
we r stil tgthr..
wadever u said was true...
we r realy thnkful to u.....
thnx a million...

n to yuzie. yuyun, zara....
thnx fer yer concern...
im touched, DEEP, DEEP..!

qn fer tday:
y do 2 humans meet wen ders gona b separation in the end?

2008-09-17T22:56:00.002+08:00

nuthn frm u aftr her txt..
i had no tears til now...

wad dos tt mean?
y i hear nuthn frm u at all?
y is she holdin onto yer hp?

im lost fer werds...

im jz sooo dwn..
soo effing crush...

haven i done enuf fer u?
fer us?

.................................

qn fer tday:
leave or stay?

2008-09-17T02:48:00.007+08:00

pix of us wit grandma...
wile waiting fer the bus to head to geylang..
funny la grandma..
haas...
=))

me n my othr half...

aira feelinfeelin...

the 5 of us walk ard geylang..
gerek or wad...

pa, u funny la..
cnt kp yer hands off me..
curikcurik, hug me, hold my hand..
hee...
cheeky boy!
saaayang kamu!!

the four of us aftr breaking fast sesame..
a late one actualy..

the atmosphere was rthr weird..
but i gas all of us jz go wit the flow..
stil i had fun tho..
+)

me n her again...

gwe ama pacar gwe...
IM YERS!!

love of my lyf...

ayang...
i njoyed the talk tt we had at the playground..
yer like pretending yer tokin to a strngr (me lar)
n u voice out evrythn..
we pretended s tho we r no lngr tgthr n stuf..
u were all teary wen u tok abt it...
i felt touched, noe...
very, s a matta of fact...
eg ; u said i noe u evrythn abt u at the tip of my finga,
no one else cn b s patient s me,
&
loads more....

papa...
i love u ayang...
i swear...
i promise to kp all my promises to u...
esp thox regarding my past...

aku cinta kamu banget deh!!

qn fer tday:
is pretending a gud thng?

2008-09-16T09:25:00.003+08:00

gud mrng ppl...
=))

kinda jz woke up...
wen ders sch,
i cnt sim to wake up early..
wen ders no sch,
im up early in the mrng...
sheesh..
irritatingly weird...

&
did i mention tt i LOVE my tymtable tix week?
=)
tday off day!
tmr's tymtable : 0800-1200!
cool shyt or wad?
if only its lyk a permanent tymtable fer 1.2....
i dare say i wun absent lar...
*aira, drm on*

ystrdy had a minor argument wit ayang...
n i jz slept...
arrgh....

scene 1 :

'ayang....i nak....'
'jan ah....'

scene 2 :

'we were at a fireplc, wile havin wine'
aira broke into lafters..

scene 3 :

'ayang...'
silence.... (fer lyk a gud 3 mins den)
'ye ashem.....'

randomness...

bt pa..
i bet u undrstd..
haas...
u laf n laf..
til u cough n u nearly wanted to puke, hor?
haas..
*aira shakes head*

i love u lar, can?

ystrdy nyt,
i had a heated argument wit grandma,
i took my fag,
stomped outta the hse,
went to the staircase to have my nicotine shot..

aargh..
im soo effing pissed..
if u tink im using too muc money..
stop me frm my nursing course n let me werk!!
c lar,
jz mentioning abt it mkes my blood boil..
oouh yar,
den came bro n sis..
i duno y bt i swear i felt awkward..
haish..
unsettled!

ooh yar...
tt gal saw me in sch..
xchnge hugs,
a few werds..
n the nxt very sec,
she was busy huggin anthr...
how irritatingly rude...
nvm...
thnx fer tt, huh!

grandma's gona go geylang ltr..
gona ask ayang to follow me accompany her..
=)
aunt aint following us to get aju raye..
she's gvin nek the money instd...
pa's following! =))

enuf said...

sayang,

i love the fact tt u kp fallin fer me
over n over again!
*winks*

nway i hup yer fasting la hor..
u dyn txt me durin sahur...

ttx abt it i gas...

n my tummy is upset!
thnx to tt yogurt!
=(

qn fer tday :
y did tt fall left a huge impact on me?

n..
ayang jz txt..
' :( ayang..'
pujok session lar ni...
tau pun eh, nk pujok i..
slh siapa kok?
kamu jugak kan?
=)
stil,
I LOVE U MICKY!!

2008-09-14T01:30:00.004+08:00

i swear the cramp is killin me...
its the worst ever...
-haish

got hum like hrs ago...
went bazaar..
alaaa..
evrythn's the same lar..

bump into quite a few ppl...
+))

ooh ya...
dot was bein an arse..
haas...
ferever dsturbing me..
'aira da kakakkakak eh skrg..'
'aira, asal kau jln gitu..'
den jz now i cmplained to pa & dot..
'aira haus eh..'
dot actually hold my head n push it dwn to his ehem..
haas...
funny sia..

kau giler la dot!

i had fun goin out with the bof of dem..
they made my nyt!
jom!
g lagi k?
=)

mon,
bck to campus..
gotta bring my lovely tabbner...
=)
haish...

sayang..
i love u n tts all that matters..
bear that in mind..
the past is the past...
learn to let go...

i duno wad to say alr la..
my lyf is rather dull nw...

and ouhh...
HAPY 10th MTHS to MICKAIRA!!

qn fer the day:
y is life full of dwns n not ups?

2008-09-09T23:26:00.002+08:00

pm shifts r spos to b rthr relax, ryt?
but nah..
tday i was xtremely busy...
n nw..
im so effin shagged...

tday i dyn had any pocket money..
cuz i spent my allowance like on monday...
&
noe wad?
huby actualy came to my rescue...
he blanje me...
+))
sweet kan?
plus he even gv me money fer the rest of the week...
ayang,
thnx fer evrythn tday..
u touch me deep, deep!!
im sory to hv kept u waitin til i finish werk...
stil i realy appreciate wad uve done fer me tday..
evn tho yer in pain,
u made yer way to my werkplc n mke sure i had sumthn to brk fast..
saaaaaayang ushuk ku...

tmr,
bof wify n huby am shift...

huby's hum alr...
i gas we bof wil b mkin our way to lala land sn....

qn fer tday:
y do humans kp repeatin their mistakes?

2008-09-08T23:28:00.003+08:00

-tired

jz gt hum frm mytin ayang..
fetch her aftr werk den we walk ard at raffles..
sat dwn...
we had caramel frappe
&
sushi......

yang...
get me e chocs kay?
(okay tts random)
suddenly i got reminded of ayang's xpression upon lukin at the prices of the chocs..
haas...

all i cn say is,
the rs is indeed improving..
i fyl soo loved now...

=))

papa...
i wun ferget the shower n pipe incident..
funny lar u yang...
den me n the fag thngy...
haas...
we had a hell of a tym lafin,
dyden we darla?

&
yer soo hawt.....
u got me wantn more..
*grins*

bfer headin hum,
we shared 2 pratas..
had our nicotine shot,
&
we made our way hum...

sayang..
i wun ever leave u..
cum wad may,
im certain tt we bof will pull thru...

yang,
jom g bazaar...
ajak lala, al, sesume la..
okays?

im bored..
sis is out..
gotta slp alne..
haish...
werkin tmr...
am shyft...

klars..
wana call hubby....

qn fer tday:
y do ppl love to invite trouble to demselves?

2008-09-08T08:21:00.003+08:00

wanted to blog in here ystrdy..
but yea was too slpy..

ryt..
tt gal finally did txt me n stuf..
best part,
she was nt at all sorry abt it..
wanted to fyt fer her ryts instead...

she kept askin y micky cnt b frens wit her..
w/o my knowledge,
definately a no, no...
please,
i dun cntrl micky..
ppl close to us noes tt..
i myn,
im even ok with the fact tt she does cntct her x n al..
if im aware of u bof cntctn earlier,
aku tk pasal sia...

&
u noe y micky chose u?
cuz she noes ive gt this grudge against u..
soo u bcame the victim..
aim : to hurt me more
n coincidently,
wen we were hvin a heated argument,
u txt my hp..
n yar tts how it all started..
y u die2 insist tt my mataer likes u?
even sayin tt ppl in clubs noes it too?
korg knal mataer aku brape lame?
korg stakat knal dier dlm club kan?

i noe my gf fer almost 3 yrs..
u myn u guys noe her better den i do?
i doubt!
gal,
can yer quite sumtym beat my 3 yrs??

n to those reading my blog..
esp couples...
u guys better nt lay yer eyes on anyone else othr den yer own partner..
n dance with yer own partner too k?
cuz..
in clubs these days,
the ppl der love to observe..
jz bcuz micky luks at her,
dances wit her..
evryone assumes so..
so yar..
with tt kinda low mentality tinkin,
i gas i like quite a few bungs...
&
wait,
there were number of tyms i danced with gals n
even love lukin at dem...
i like dem?
meanin im nt only a passive,
im actually a PL too??
haas...
korg actualy soo free eh?
to observe la..
to tok abt it...
gf aku hawt sgt pe smp korg tok abt it..

n wad ryts hv u gt to tell me hw hurt micky was wen i cntcted my x..
u dun even noe the whole story..
dun poke yer nose into ppl's affair..

n the best part...
u so called die2 soo wana noe whthr my gf likes u..
u actually kept askin til she said.. 'ya...'
an utter embarressment!

ni kau ckp kau tk rampas kwn peh mataer?
haas...
yer darn funny lar gal...

wadever it is..
korg nye aim to brk us up was an utter failure...

in fact micky treasures me more now..

i shall end tix whole crap here...

n yar,
to that prsn hu told her abt me farking her upsyd dwn in my blog...
thnx aye fer passing the msg to her...
=))
i owe u 1 k?

2008-09-07T08:50:00.007+08:00

yer sucha two face bitch.
i farking swear..
go, go spread n say tt my gf likes u..
&
yea, even if she did so,
you noe wad?
its just to spike me..
to get bck at me...
n if u stil shiok sendiri......
gasak kau la, gal...

ooh..
ya....
u bof actualy agreed to like kp it btwn the bof of u...
but der u go..
spreading it ard...
kirekan lu bangge ar?
skrg,
sape tanggung malu, joy??
hus havin the last laf?

sial ah gal..
i maybe younger den u..
but hey,
bn der, done tt...

so like kononkonon nye..
nk step ckp dgn micky,
' i wan tix n tat in a bung... blah, blah, blah...'
so mcm nk dptkn micky...
SELET DAUN AR?
step understanding..
b der s a fren...
den slowly mcm nk take her frm me??
(stop dreaming)
beb...
aku da buat ar, sume ni..

THINK!

y wud she wana confess to me abt all this if she meant evrythn she said to u??

THINK AGAIN!

n the best part,

wen micky txt u sayin she wana put a stop to all tix...
u actualy have the cheek to say
'i wil oways b der fer u wenever u nyd sumone'
n wad?
u told my gf yg kau bukan jenis yg rampas kwn peh mater?
taik ar...
jgn nk step baik la..
bukan perampas beh, asal nk g blg sume yg mataer aku ckp dier suke kau...?
dun contradict yerself..

sial la..
u jz made me realise a thng..
pompan mcm kau senang kacep..

she admitted tt its her stupidity to do so
&
she regrets it to the farkin max...

so beb,
stop tryna like u noe,
step innocent like s u did no wrng...
all thox ' i duwan u to quarrel wit yer bf... i hv no fylinx fer yer bf..'
sayin u dyn txt nor call..
u even called her frm yer werkplc, yer hp..
PLUS!!!!
u even told her the criteria u wan in a bung..
a bung hus manly type..
gitu carik jantan la sial..
to tink u even tell my gf tt yer gf is lembut...

gracious...

enuf la beb...
im certain tt micky was merely usin u...
but hey,
she will never leave me
n definately i wuden too...
in fact,
u sorta like strengthen our rs..
im sory fer tix dissapointment!

n ya,
its yer mouth,
cary on,
spread all u cn...

MICKAIRA WILL STIL STAY!!

qn fer tday:
wads yer motive???
gal..... was yer plan ruin????
im 'SORRY'
ooh, anthr qn fer u gal...
do u nyd me to ask my gf to teach yer gf how to b manly?

2008-09-06T02:49:00.000+08:00

HATE MYSELF FER LOVING YOU....

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU SOO....

ok, im done..

2008-09-06T02:34:00.004+08:00

ooh well...
how do i put it..
im hurt. crushed. devastated. dsapointed. WADEVER-

REVENGE IS SWEET..

how true is tt?
in wad sense is it sweet wen its btwn couples?
like ok,
u love tt sumone very muc,
wud u wana do thngs wic u noe,
wil strain the rs,
leave teary eyes n stuf?

&
yes GIRLS these days..
r PURE BITCHES...
sory to put it in a crude way but yea,
puki gatal...

gal,
if yer my fren,
u wud dfinately,
text me up or sumthn wen tt hppns,
but did u?
nah!
ooh well,
we r jz hi n bye frens, ryt?
soo it doesnt affect u a single bit, hor?
but if u tink yer duin so cuz of sumthn rgardin the past,
very well den..
look..
have it yer way..
n yar..
if u hv sumthn against me,
STOP PRETENDING to b nice to me..
P-E-R-I-O-D

"u love me?
and this is wad u do?
nuthn i say will go into yer head..
i duno wad else do to n say..
u hv done wad u wan,
i hup u r hapy...
u r jz too egoistic..."

BUT
STILL
I
CANT
SAY
GO

qn fer day:
wad kinda satisfaction do u get??

2008-09-01T22:52:00.004+08:00

so hw was yer 1st day of fasting?
mine was good..
=))
alhamdulillah..

tadi met ayang..
she came over aftr breaking fast...
papa puase tday!!
*rnd of applause*
we went cyber cafe,
den head to 7-11 n sat at the staircase...
ard 10, ayang headed hum..
m waitin fer her call..
hmmm...
we r duin am shift tmr...
*sighs*
malesh deh....

ayang,
i doubt we r mytin tmr kan?
gona mish u noe...
pa,
jom myt dot..
i miss her too....
r u hum yet?
hurry,
call me...
im missing u tons!!

ooh gosh,
im werkin tmr...
tsk...
im in a holiday mood....

dear,
sat we buke sesame k?
i nk buke kt uma u sumday?
kangen ama mama.....

qn fer tday:
y do i feel the pinch?

2008-09-01T05:04:00.006+08:00

B-U-R-P

aira jz finish bersahur...
drinkin water now...

papa's eating..
ayang,
aamo greedy k?
take only wad u cn eat..
dun take spicy stuf eh..
wait aket peyot...

cnt wait to c u later........
K-A-N-G-E-N

K-A-N-G-E-N

K-A-N-G-E-N
(dun brk my fast, k? promish?)

ok,
GO....

ooh yar,
tc otw to werk sayang...
aamo nenoty hor?

KAU KEKASIH KU............

qn fer tday:
r memories harmful?

2008-09-01T01:53:00.003+08:00

wad a day..
i swear it sucks..
i broke dwn aftr a long tym..
thnx fer the shyts, aunts..
it was very muc appreciated..
=))

aftr the whole incident,
i slpt til 6pm..
den dcyded to myt ayang..
met her fer a mere wile..
rched hum at 10..
was on the comp til now..

papa ushuk slp alr...
missing u ayang...

ooh ya,
we had fun dyden we, yang?

ystrdy,
s in on sat,
we went to catch a movie at PS..
4BIA..
i love the movie...
ayang akot.............
hehe...
den we headed to our hum..
we decyded to do the 500pieces puzzle..
we did it frm 1am-7am..
picture that?
gosh...
but we did take a break..
n fer that,
yer hawt la...
aaaw....
hehe...

naza!!
i saw u...
haas...
u were like.. 'gal..!'
i tot who...
zap!!
kamu...
haas...
nice mytin u..
tho it was a short wile...
missing u tons still...

to my nana baby...
dearest gal..
im soo sorry fer nt goin kays?
fergive me cn?
duwan the cold treatment frm u..
i'll make it up to u by breaking fast tgthr sumday?
ask yuzie darla too..
huever u wana bring, k?
please fergv me kays?

n yar,
to my fellow muslim frens,
slamat bersahur & berpuase...
muz fast hor, k?
=)

qn fer tday:
was it a mistake??

2008-08-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

dyn go werk tday..
was spos to go fer pm shyft..
but yea,
woke up 11.30...
was fylin sooo effyn weak...
called mr.lenard,
told him i cnt cum...
n yea...
rest at hum..
=))

thnx fer the tym,
bro n sis..
besh la u bof..
*hugy*

lets say,
im in a foul mood..
thnx to her...
thnx fer saying all tt...
u lef an impact on me..
im utterly shattered..
basicaly no one,
i realy mean no one has ever said tt to me...
but yea,
u did...
n seriusly,
its affecting me..
those werds eats me up inside..
i shall not say any further..
i hup u r hapy..
=)

i wish i had u by me.. :(

qn fer tday:
jz y i cant say go?

2008-08-27T06:35:00.002+08:00

gud mrng....
woke up n wanted to head to the bathrm..
but yea,
instead i called mr.lenard n told him im cnt cum tday..
im fylin sick..
=(

okay,
ystrdy was so tirin..
was on am shyft,
bz, s usual..
den i lef to head hum,
took my o level cert,
wen to the bank to do sumthn,
aftr tt went to ite simei...
finished wit the stuf there,
i went MW to buy chocs fer sis n hubbs at SINS...
im glad dey loved it...
ard 1900, i rched hum..
c?
a tiring day indeed...

at 2230,
i went to fetch hubb frm werk,
i gave her a surprise...
&
boy, was she surprise!
but yang,
i tink yer far more worst den me wen it cums to 'reactions aftr a surprise'
=))
we headed to our usual plc...
at 3 made our way hum...........

papa,
i duno wen we'll myt again..
but yea,
a part of u wil oways b with me..
im missing u, like ferever...

gona c mr doc ltr...

qn fer tday:
haven i shown u enuf?

2008-08-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

im soo shlpy...
i cn hardly open my eyes...

*hw abt a rd of applause..*

aira werked hard tday despyt nt slpin the whole entire nyt!
i swear the clock was ticking at a slower rate..
my god la..
n wen my fren said..
'aira! its NINE!'

i was like,
YAYNESH!!
saw 2 of my frens der..
their nek hospitalised...
but nt in my cubicle..
&
i heard ejan's dad gt hospitalised..
shall check it out..

pa fetched me tday at werk..
sweet or wad?
hee..

thnx sayang..
im stil sore over wad u smsed me earlier..
but its okay..

aira wants to slp...

gudnyt ppl......

qn fer tday:
is revenge all u ever tink of?